Proving a point

Went to the police station last night after leaving office. Submitted a copy of the complaint sent to the police commissioner. It just feels as though there is no energy left. I am feeling drained today.

Shivaji, the accountant was also traumatized yesterday. After the way the landlord behaved with him, he just came and sat quietly in my cabin for half an hour. He just could not speak. It felt as if he had been raped (mentally and emotionally I guess it was a rape) and he was in shock. And I felt very powerless over the entire situation. Mental rape and abuse should also be punishable. But emtional crimes are not even acknowledged in this country. Where rapes go unpunished, how can one expect justice for mental trauma.

The MD of the Jaipur client sent a mail yesterday regarding the sample of the map we had sent and other deliverables. He said it was the ‘worst’ sample he had ever seen. The mail was read by other team members and everyone was angry. The MD has no idea of GIS, no idea how difficult it has been to match the hand drawn khasra maps to the earth coordinates without actually going to the ground for survey, without having any ground control points. For us, it was technically more important to bring them to earth coordinates, merge and mosaic them accurately than on making them look good in terms of colors and presentation. If the village maps are not geo-referenced, the other layers would definitely not overlay on this. But I guess the client is only looking at the ‘looks’ and not the ‘accuracy’. How does one deal with ‘unintelligence’? I have no idea. Or ‘obnoxious’ clients?

Or stupidity? Or control freaks? Clients who just wish to control and show their superiority. Clients who do not believe in freedom or team spirit or positive support.

The team was feeling very de-moralized yesterday and I could see how I could not protect them from the harsh realities of living. It is what it is and it is not what it is not.

Sometimes it feels as though it is a meaningless exercise, this business of living, making money, following the system, getting some rewards, some brownie points for being a slave.

for proving a point.