To be still. To not do anything. To wait for a solution to emerge. To not take any action, I think is more difficult than constantly doing something. Just to be is far more challenging than being busy and spending energy doing useless and meaningless tasks. And ‘to be’ is what I am trying at the moment. To let clarity emerge. To not try to force a solution by controlling, manipulating.
Appu has been talking to a few publishers and one of them has shown interest in publishing the maps we have cartographed. We are considering an outright sale of data to meet our immediate funding requirements. Although a royalty on each Atlas printed would mean revenue for a lifetime, but the crisis generated by the Yashi project has to be dwealt with. So the samples are being couriered to the publisher today and then hoepfully a meeting whould follow. We have very beautifully cartographed maps in english and hindi. Each map is like a piece of art and me and all of us are very proud of the work that has been done. The hindi maps have been prepared over a period of two years and they are simply breathtaking in their presentation and authenticity of data.
The CA is talking to potential investors and I have no idea what direction it will take. I did ask the CA whether anyone on the board of directors was a ‘womanizer’. And he laughed and he said ‘no,no’. They do not see any gender,caste,color,creed,sex’. They only see ‘money’. Kya baat hai. He says thay talk ‘money’, walk ‘money’, think ‘money’. Great. So at least they will not flirt with our girls. I am anyway on the other side of 40 and minus any charms. And we are learning to handle talks about ‘money’. So far so good.
Narendra and Dimpi were sharing yesterday how they have learned to live with the constant threat of bomb blasts in Assam where they belong. I was truly awed by their tenacity of purpose. It must be difficult to live with death staring constantly in your face. What would be the inspiration to study, to make a career when you have no idea when you could die. I am humbled. I guess that is how they have survived in GC. pata nahin, next moment main kya hoga. But death is far more inspiring and scary than the dirth of money. I am proud of you guys. I am learning from you.
Veena I think has grown up through all this. She is seeing the various angles of men and in the process, I think she has matured. The childishness is a little less. It has been a reality check for her. She is also doubting if Rahul Kaushik could have fallen in love with her head over heels on a train journey. And if there was any future that he could have offered apart from the Orkut messages and an online virtual relationship. Or a brief clandestine affair behind his wifes’ back for a year or two.
All is well or will be well (I hope).
