Monthly Archives: July 2010
Relay race
Narendra and Shivaji are on thir way to Jaipur. For the umpteenth time. dekh lete hain. But there is no sense of control or hope. Mistrust is something which cannot be measured by money. Have completely handed over controls to my HP. No qualms in complete surrender and experiencing powerlessness. In Life,work,money, everything. … Continue reading
Here and now
There are times when there is bankruptcy in all areas of one’s life, emotionally,spiritually and financially. That is what I am experiencing at the moment. I have nothing to offer to anyone, not even to myself. To sustain GC has been more than a 24*7 job. It has ensured that I have not been available … Continue reading
Life as it is
Appu has been scouting around for work. The discussions have begun but it will take some time for the work to freeze. she has opened the doors again for us to earn in a neat and clean way. Yashi. What is to be said. SG wishes to negotiate and that is the game being … Continue reading
To be still
To be still. To not do anything. To wait for a solution to emerge. To not take any action, I think is more difficult than constantly doing something. Just to be is far more challenging than being busy and spending energy doing useless and meaningless tasks. And ‘to be’ is what I am trying … Continue reading
To Bunk life
Amma (my long time maid) is back from her village and I am grateful. These are very stressful times and her presence assures me of some relief in the morning. I get my cups of tea and the water gets filled. I attended an NA meeting yesterday and it always feels good. Just holding … Continue reading
Getting bread from a hardware store
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results. I kept knocking the doors of my family, hoping, praying ki kabhie to pyaar milega. Kabhi to meri maa darwazw khol kar bolegi ki beti aaja,thak gaye hogi zindagi akele jite jite,come and lie down in my lap for a while. It … Continue reading
Let light come to us from all sides
Increasingly, I wish to meet fewer people,be in touch with selected ones and be more quiet. I do not know the reasons but making small talk is not my forte anymore. Or being fake. Jo hai woh hai. More than the fearlessness of death, it is when one loses everything while alive, that there is … Continue reading
Take on Aparna
That is the common refrain. Lash out at her. Humiliate her. Put false complaints against her. Open her personal life for the world to see. Anything to break her back. Rahul Kaushik, Sanjay Gupta,Jagannath Nayak the list is endless. Why? Because Aparna has chosen to speak up. To stand up. So burn … Continue reading

