The highlight of the day has been this huge lemon from Assam that Dimpi has gifted to me (it was meant for Narendra but he called in sick so I got the benefit). Thanks Dimpi. I mean it is the first time that such a huge lemon has been presented to me as if it were a huge bouquet of flowers. And of course the sample of Shillong map that we were able to send to a potential client.
The second highlight is the stealing of money from the office by a ‘citibank agent’. He came for collection of the instalment and as Shivaji left him for a while to talk to me, he quietly opened the drawer and picked up the office cash lying there. After the theft was discovered, Shivaji doubted Ramesh but on seeing the expression on Ramesh’s face, Shivaji backed off. Then the footage from the CCTV was re-played and there it was. The ‘citibank agent’ smoothly picking up the money. Cool and clean move. No second thoughts before picking up the money. Unbelievable.
Appu was up the whole night yesterday to study Maths. I wonder how she does it. She was supposed to attend the full school today but I got her back home at break time. Her paper was not brilliant and she was worried about the whining of the teachers. More than the real education, it is the teachers that students are worried about. So the driving force is not the quest for knowledge but the fear of their teachers.
I have been thinking that there should be something called an ‘emotional sabbatical’. Like we have breaks for ‘maternity’, ‘paternity’, ‘marriages’, ‘death’, we should have a break for ‘emotional instability’ or ‘ emotional inequilibrium’. I mean if one is not ‘feeling’ like working or studying, then there should be a valid break allowed. What is the point in forcing anyone to sit in the office or school when the willingness, the inspiration to work or create is not there. Basically, what I want to say is that I need a break. That is the long and short of it.
This, at a time when the office has to be changed and all that jazz about the bank and bills. When I had started the earlier company, I worked 24/7. Appu was not with me and I had chosen the night shift at an online education portal, e-gurucool.com. During the day I was in the office ( a small barsaati at the top floor) and during the night I was with e-gurucool. They had managed to get a huge funding from venture capitalists and hence the office was beautiful and in the night shift we were served dinner (highlight). The salary I got from there was diverted to the company I was trying to set up. And sometimes I would land up in the office (the barsaati) after midnight to work. The landlord would get very agitated as he had to open the main gate. But after a while he gave me a key and let me do my own thing. I guess he realized that I was a ‘mad’ person and there was no point in changing me.
Appu was not with me then although I sorely missed her. It was my decision to leave her with her father as I had no place to stay and my work was also very unstable. She has not forgiven me for that decision to date.
So, I think it would be OK to ‘not work’ for a while. ‘Justified’ hai. Truly, the mind can justify anything.
An ‘emotional sabbatical’. I need one right now.
