The meeting with the AAI guys has been re-scheduled for tommorrow morning. There was a shifting of programs and it was difficult for me to reach their office at the given time. The list of queries (which is endless) is ready with me ( at least what is not clear, is clear to me).
Dimpy is still working on the Kolkata map and Narendra is working on the presentation. Shivaji checked out a few places for the office but they are all exhorbitantly high and beyond our budget. So it is just not clear as to where we would shift. The ‘when’ is very clear. Our lease gets over on September 30th, 2010.
Yesterday was Sunday and after dropping my daughter for her dance class, I went for a walk in the park. It is a site where a ‘Qila’ has been restored and there are these walls of the fort which have been augmented by rocks. It is a nice site and many times it has occured to me that it would be nice to climb those rocks and look at the view from there. Since there was time before I needed to pick up my daughter, I did climb the rocks and it was a beautiful view from the top. The lush green grass, the trees, everything looked draped in green and peace. What a change in perspective. Just by shifting of positions, the perspective is so different. I guess that is where the current generation has got its often used word ‘POV’ (point of view). And they keep saying that our POV is different. Of course it is. Their angle (way) of looking at things and events is different from ours. And that is how it should be, I guess. Humanity cannot, should not continue to make the same mistakes.
The hunt for an office boy has re-started. Ramesh just left in the afternoon to attend a family function and we are left to handle the basic office functions ( who will keep the keys to open the office, clean it, serve tea and lunch). The closing of the office has always been my domain so that is not a problem.
I am not sure if we will pick up the project from the infrastructure guys. The payment terms are pathetic and we have burned our fingers too many times. It is better to be without work than work in a lose-lose situation. Basically we are ‘unemployed’ for now. And ‘bankrupt’. Kya combination hai. Lethal.
My father called. And he desperately wants me to join my brother. He has always been on a different frequency mode. He has not understood the choices I have made. And the reasons. So what is there to be said. I have told him that ‘poverty’ is better than ‘pain or chaos’ and that ‘poverty of thought’ is a greater poverty than the ‘poverty of money or material things’ but I cannot get across to him. It is as if we talk two different languages.
Appu is busy practicing for her dance on the ‘Teachers’ Day’. So the entire drawing room has been re-arranged (which is not much since only one piece of furniture had to be shifted to make place) for the practice. I had a huge altercation with Amma in the morning. She is becoming increasingly dysfunctional and I have no idea how to deal with her. Or to run the house without her presence. This is one constant area of conflict.
The day is over. for now. It is always nice to drive back home. It is as of nothing more can be done. No more efforts can be put in to change the situation and I can literally let my hair down and listen to some music (that is in case the antenna works to catch the radiostations. It works quite intermittently).
Just get out of the way and let HP work.
Not to create a crisis and not to prevent one from happening. Huge.
‘To not do anything’.
