Another day. of work. Of life and living. Came back very late last night. Appu had a splitting headache and the novalgin strip was in my office bag as I also need them very frequently these days. So it was that she had to bear the pain till I came back from office since all the chemists in our area, close shop by 11:00pm. She slept soon after taking the medicine. It is sad that I am not able to be with her when she needs me most.
It has been a bad day at work also. The accounts are in disarray. The software development has stopped as Ashok has given up and in a way run away from the project. He did not have the courage to stand up and accept that it was too big a challenge for him. We chose a loser again. What is it about us that attracts losers to us? And we keep trying to transform the losers into winners. It takes a lot of energy, time and effort to align the team to become winners and even one loser amongst them causes us to lose. The constant churning, the constant removal of the unnecessary so that the necessary can remain is very draining.
The online shop continues to be a mess. Paul has written in to say that the pieces might be put together this week. That would be huge. The interface and other aspects of the shop have been in a state of IP (in process) for ages now.
Miraculously, my father came to meet me yesterday. It is quite strange. Just recently, I was thinking that he had not called me in a long time and lo behold, there he was. The universe responds to all our needs I guess. We just have to ask, believe and have faith.
Appu’s college begins in two days from now. I hope it is a better experience for her than school.
No project as of now. Living alone, growing-up, the bills, the rigmarole of daily living.
The questions without the answers. The answers without the questions.
To see without seeing, to observe without observing,
And to live without living.



