As we are scaling up, there is stress within the team. The expectations from the team have increased and it is hard for them to match up to them. But as we grow, these pulls and strains are mandatory and hopefully they will only build our muscles and not tear us apart. Dimpi is leaving today and Shikha will need to handle the necessary rectifications,if at all, for the Rajasthan project. I am hoping that she will be able to handle the responsibility. We are nearly finished with the Hyderabad project and we have done QC many times over to avoid the probability of any error. We should be able to submit the report by the end of this week. Fingers crossed.

Appu is studying overnight for her exams. I wonder how she does it. I guess there is a lot of stress and I know that she is handling it alone. She knows that I am constantly worried and stressed about GC. I am very grateful to her that she handles so much on her own.

The gas cylinder has still not come in the house.The gas agency is as elusive as ever. And vegetables are needed in the office. And there are bills to be paid. of course. And instalments.And salaries.

I don’t feel like working today. Let us see. Will do what I can.

For today.

There was a tender with Jalandhar Municipal Corporation and since the investment was high, we decided to go ahead with a lead partner, Genesys. It was all smooth till they asked for our company details and we asked for an agreement. Then we were asked to define our scope of work in the entire project. We mentioned that we could actually handle the complete technical execution from start to finish and that they needed to highlight what part they were keen on doing. And that was it. All communication stopped.
I am wondering if stating our capabilities was what busted it. I mean we should have shown our disability and shortcomings rather than our strength. And maybe because it is a company being headed by a woman. Maybe it is true that it is difficult, maybe impossible for a woman to break the glass ceiling in the corporate world. What else can explain the slow and tedious growth of Global Coordinates?
Or should I follow the idiom: ‘stoop to win’ literally. Jhuk jao, doormat ban jao. Then it might work. To do it with self respect and honesty and dignity, forget it.

Maybe I am speculating.Maybe I don’t want to see the reality even when it is staring me in the face. Jo bhi hai, kuch to theek nahin hai. Actually, kuch bhi theek nahin hai.

Theek ho jayega, like in the future tense. It will get better.
When?

is an irrelevant question.

Just walk the walk.