Increasingly, i think more than jobs, we need people who want to do those jobs, who truly want to work. Mostly I am challenged with people who believe that having a degree and being alive is a passport for getting a job and making a living. And this creates poor quality work, low national income and consequently lesser net income and growth. But this is an area which is not focussed at, at all, as it would mean confronting the inability of our education system, of confronting our own inadequacies as individuals and as a nation. This is one more reason for people to walk out from GC. They are challenged to not just exist, but to live, to stretch their capabilities to the maximum and the hard work and commitment required drives them away. Mostly they are looking for easier softer options to make a living and just getting by. ‘Just get by’ is the ‘mantra’ to live with for most of us.

No project or payment in sight so far. Good. Very good. The lean times will help us respect the good times better. Amma continues to cook the lunch in the office. So far so good. The HR/Admin team has been re-vamped and hopefully they will sustain the pressure at GC. The newsletter for the month of july is in progress and is being designed by Narendra.
The online shop is due to be launched on August 8 although large parts of the inteface are yet to be finalized. Keeping our fingers crossed.

The online motor in the house has been replaced and the water situation is better now. I think it was overdue and it was just not done due to the lack of funds. So as we say in NA, on the outside, there is manageability. Ah, but what matters is the inside and we hardly ever talk about it.

Let the tears flow, they clean the eyes, the heart and the soul,
Let the world go about its own business,
Let the earth rotate at its own speed,
Let the universe step in and help when we cannot do it alone,
Let go of things, of people who choose to leave.

Letting go is probably the most powerful lesson in life and living.

‘Let go’

Appu’s thoughts are becoming clearer regarding what path she wishes to take. And there are huge visions she has, of being able to make a difference in people’s lives. I am very proud of her. I do not know if I can or will be able to support her in any way but I know that whatever she chooses to do will be worthwhile.

Need a fresh pair of spectacles. I went to the optician but my eyes need testing and it would have taken a lot of time so I scheduled it for another day. If there could be glasses for the soul just like for the eyes, to see and understand clearly what the mind cannot.

‘if’, ‘if only’ are huge questions. It is pointless to look for their answers.

It is what it is.
And it is not what it is not.

I did not feel like coming to work today but it is like one task at a time, one day at a time. And what needs to be done on a daily basis has to be done. I have not really accomplished much. A few phone calls, a few mails and that is about all. A lot of clutter needs to go from my table. Too many unproductive files.
It will happen I guess. awareness, acceptance,action. Action is the last step you see. I am yet in the awareness stage you see. Although action is the magic word.

So today, I just wish to go home, lie down and rest. Close my eyes and forget that I have loans to re-pay, that we need more projects and the unpaid bills.

For once. For a change.

Surrender to a HP.