We need chairs for the conference room. ‘chairs’ are expensive. In all ways. (after all ‘kursi’ is everything you see). But we will have to do something. Its very cumbersome to keep moving the chairs from the technical section to the conference room as and when visitors come.
Lunch continues to be served in the office. That is quite an achievement. It is very easy to start anything. And very difficult to sustain it.

Appu is going to turn 18 this year. My God. I mean she will become an adult. Huge achievement to sustain on the surface of the earth for 18 years. And to live with me (the mad insane person that I am).

I wish we could say now:
‘ and we worked and lived happily ever after’

But thats only in a fairy tale guys. And valid in the heavens.
And we are on the earth.

So let us stay on the earth and say: ‘we are just fine for now’

Shiva says the magic is about ‘money’. When ‘money’ comes then ‘everything’ and ‘everyone’ changes. That also implies that when money goes all this so called ‘drama of respect’ will go. That is even more scary.

I wonder if there was an AMC (Annual Maintenance Contract) for ‘relationships’, would it have helped. I mean there is an AMC for all possible kinds of hardware and machines. But ‘relationships’ are more fragile and devastating. What about them? If such an AMC were available, relationships between family members, team members, between countries,economies could be repaired. That could save a lot of money and time and lives. No wars, no fight over property,no disputes to be settled in court,no emotional discord. Maybe this is just wishful thinking. Maybe ‘women’ could do a better job of executing such an ‘AMC’ if it existed.

My father visited and met Appu. Of course, he mentioned that my brother ran a company with a turnover of 6 crores whereas ‘her mother’ (i.e me) had been in the struggle zone for years. Why can’t they just leave us alone. We are OK with the way of life we have chosen. I do not know what is their problem. I am not competing with my brother. I am just trying to do my best. Why is it so difficult for my parents to understand?
The anniversary celebrations are coming nearer and I have no idea whether to go or not. My family always triggers me (negatively) and I am not too keen to be a part of their insanity anymore.

Sometimes the sane are more insane than the insane.

Does it make any sense?

Insanity.

Lets talk about it.

I am getting ready mentally for a potential business partner. Maybe that would mean increased growth, distribution of responsibilities, funding.. Maybe I am in the burnout phase. Just too tired most of the time.

The salaries for February and most of the pending bills need to be cleared. Except that I have no idea how.
The bank has refused to increase our limit at all unless we show some collateral, property against which they might consider our request. And ‘property’? You must be joking guys. Where is the property?

So I checked out the process of developing a business plan. And it is a herculean task. And how can you go on and on writing (actually praising) about your concept, services,idea, whatever..
par karna to padega.

VC’s,angel investors, angels.. please visit GC.

I have not contributed an iota in my daughters’ final exams. If at all, I have been whining and have been depressed around her.

I am going insane.

Don’t check me out.