I can hear the birds chirping in the courtyard in the morning and it is a very soothing sound for the soul (which is in a constant state of agitation). Appu has gone to visit the various colleges for admission to a graduate program today. Ankit and ashok stayed back in the office yesterday as our discussions lasted very late into the night ( which happens quite often). There was a slight spark in the server room yesterday and it caused us some panic. The situation was brought under control very soon but nevertheless it is being planned that a cut-off be installed outside the office to be able to switch off all the mains in case of an emergency.
Finally the TDS certificates from NATMO have arrived although the balance payment is still pending. Rajeev is following up with them as my tolerance limits have long been crossed. Is it possible or realistic to wait for two years for any payment for a project which has been finished and delivered even before that? Well, it is a government body so that kind of sums it up. They are the ‘sarkar’. They are autonomous. They can do what they want. And everything they do is legal and everything that a private sector does is illegal.
The CA is finalizing the balance sheet for the current financial year. Hopefully, it will be a better picture than last year. Ankit and Bhagat are busy in getting all the components of the online shop ready so as to be able to launch it by August 8 this year. Similarly, Ashok is trying to have his first module ready, again by August 8. Dimpi and Narendra are in the process of wrapping up the report for the site in Chennai.
Theek hi hai. Everything is fine,on the surface. Bas bheja thoda fried hai (What’s new!). I have a lot of people to thank who stood by me when my own family did not. It is because of all of them and HP that I am being able to live a life of dignity for myself and my daughter today. And that has been a huge milestone. To be self-supporting. At last, I can say that I am employed (am taking home a salary now).
I would like to travel, to read, to live, to just be. This whole chakkar of ‘dal,roti,chat’ has been very draining. And restraining.
To live and let live is so difficult. To not become a monster in the midst of monsters, is even more difficult.
Is anything easy? Just breathe. That should not take any effort.