Jeena hai? Do you want to live?
But of course? Jeevan hi toj ji rahen hain. We are living. I mean all our efforts are going into living. Just living. Paying the bills, keeping our I cards in place and up to date, arranging the basic utilities of electricity, water, roof. I guess very soon we will need to pay extra for oxygen also.
I mean like ‘truly live’?Not ‘live live’.
What do you mean by ‘truly living’? ‘Just living’ ke liye itna marna pad raha hai. Abhi ‘ true living ke liye’ kya karna hoga? And what the hell is the difference? When generations before us have ‘just lived’, how do we know what is ‘ true living’? Another spiritual discourse?Paise chhaiyen? yeh sab bolne ki fees chhahiye? Le lo yaar. Time waste mat karo bhai.
For ‘true living’, you only have to stop ’ just living’.
Kya shabdon ka khel hai. Beyond us. Please let us be.
No time to sleep. No time to breathe. No time to write. Agar ruk gaye to kyaa hoga? Agar aaj ‘dhyadi’ nahi lagaai to kya hoga? What about the salaries? The bills? The projects? Submissions? The same music. The same dance. All our lives. Abhi office badalna hai. What a huge task. pehle to dhoodhna hai. Appu has taken on that responsibility of looking for a suiable office ( suitable meaning according to our budget of course, not our needs). With all nighters the norm of the day, she has told me that she will keep one room separately for me to sleep in. And I have no idea whether this is out of concern or hidden resentment for the office.
I should have become a monk ( without the Ferrari). Or better still, invested in horses. If GC ever makes extra money, we would like to invest in high breed horses. Just the thought is making us feel so good.
Not bad. Not bad at all.
From maps to horses.